My life has been so twisted and messed up recently, You honestly wouldn’t believe. I can’t believe these last 2 days. But I’m still so scared of whats to come. I’m happy that I’ve got all the support but I feel so terrified I just want to cry. No one understands how I feel. I have so much hatred for myself. Depression and Self Harm has got to me. I’m lucky to not got so far that suicide is the answer to everything. But I’m so scared that it will come to that one day. Everyday I think “I don’t know why I bother, life has been so fucking shit for me, why was I born”. I’m ngl, I have attempted suicide many times when I was younger. But I just couldn’t commit.
Talking about it helps, but I don’t always have someone to talk to. I’m going to go back to counselling. Maybe I still have things I need to talk about. I.m hoping it will help me properly. I don’t want to end up like this again. Panic attacks, anxiety, self harm and depression :(
Day 22 - Your favourite picture of Your favourite band: Young Guns and Lawson <33
Day 21 - A picture of a cool band logo: BLINK 182
Day 20 - A picture of Your favourite Album cover: Young Guns Bones :)
Day 19 - A picture of Your favourite Album: Kings Of Leon, Come Around Sundown :)
Day 18 - A picture of a Band that hasn’t got a single bad song: Lawson & Young Guns <3